Sunday, March 08, 2015

为什么不对了....

我完成了SPM大考 也拿了成绩.
我完成了国民服务 也不甘不愿的回来了.
我讨厌继续读书 我也豁出去 选了自己还算感兴趣的课.


可是为什么你们却依然不满意....


我不想读书 你们不喜欢
我选了课 你们也不喜欢....


既然你们心里已经为我设定好 为什么要生出个有感受的肉体
早知如此 不如买个活生生的扯线娃娃....


太差了.....  我真的太差了.


为什么总爱用来比较
为什么都不听我的感想
为什么都不了解我我不喜欢的是什么....


你们不了解其他的我都没什么
我知道你们忙 没能了解我的喜好


但如今我不喜欢的东西我也为你们为自己做了
为什么还是一副不满意的样子
既然我那么差 为什么还要继续供养我
让我自生自灭不就得了.....


为什么要那么疼我
我根本只是没有用处的一块肉


要怎么表达才可以自己不受委屈 也不伤害你们....

Wednesday, March 04, 2015

The Experience of PLKN i can told you.

[我与国民服务有关的一则帖子]


先来个简洁的自我介绍


我是从Kem PLKN Pelangi Hill Resort, KKB里
毕业的练习生(Pelatih)
于Kumpulan 1, Siri 12/2015.
Index no.: BPMT12

[轻预言]
-可能会是历史上最后一批的练习生.


如果政府重启国民服务这项program
我会先说感恩上天
吝啬的政府继续让青年免费度假


没去过国民服务[PLKN]的你知道吗?
其实PLKN=度假
千万别找借口不去
这里绝对是你值得去的一个地方


如果你是颗被抽中去Kem PLKN Pelangi Hill Resort的幸运星
听姐姐说 千千万万不要不去参加
这里是最轻松最不辛苦的兵营


我是来自BRAVO的wirawati(女生的意思, 男生则是wira)
在那里w/wati的dorm 平均22至25人一个dorm
Wira则是32-35人一个dorm
(附带一提 BRAVO获得Kompeni yang Terbaik dalam Kump 1, Siri12/2015.)


这里的设施很全 也很新
这里的东西很干净 很舒适
食物也没有不干净或者难吃
而且一旦吹风 就会很大风很凉爽
(其实这些东西一切基于看你是随和的人还是千金小姐或少爷 哈哈哈哈哈)


先给这个地方介绍介绍
(这将会是最长篇的帖子 却是我写的最开心的一次 嘿嘿嘿)


先从浴室开始吧
浴室有一个大缸
但却有6间浴室 6间厕所 6个洗脸盆 8个洗衣台(Deeper sink)
当然也有6片镜子
哈哈哈哈哈 所以大家在厕所里不需要争洗澡刷牙什么的


我在那里的活动时间是17个小时
扣上午觉时间 半小时至1个钟
所以是16个小时都得要醒着活动


而那里的日常作息是这样 (附送英+国语的说明与建议)
Wake up at 6 (better wake up  before 6)
(If you hv no alarm, you can get help from Pelatih Muslim)
(Coz they hv kuliah subuh(pray when midnight, ard 5.45) so they will wake up earlier than you)

PT pagi on 6half (6.30) with Baju PT. (Carry on at Padang Kawad/Dewan)
(Sing the Negeraku, Lagu Khidmat Negeara, Bacaan Ikrar)
(Actually location is depence on weather and mood of teacher) (Wtf hahaha)

After PT Pagi teacher will maybe hving some workout until 7.

Hving first meal (Breakfast) in DM (Dewan Makan) on 7half.
(Your breakfast only possible - Nasi Lemak, Bihun/Nasi Goreng, Bihun/Kuey Teow/Mee soup, Cereals, Soto Mayam)
(Dewan and canteen is in the same building, so called it Dewan Makan (DM).)

(After workout and breakfast can sleep while till before kelas)

8half sure kumpul in fornt of DM before kuliah.

9 Kuliah (with Baju Kelas) (carry on in Classroom)
(Kuliah=kelas. Class abt Kenegeraan, Keagamaan, Tradisional of different Kaum, Peranan of penduduk M'sia..... All abt the negara)

Recess time of kuliah is 10half. Can hving your 2nd meals (Tea time) in DM.
(Possible food in your tea time is Popiah, Kuih-muih, Curry puff, Kek Bahulu, Cucur udang + Sos Cili, etc....)

And the kuliah will go on at 11 until 12half. (But friday is till 12, coz Pelatih Muslim hv to pray.)

12half can hving your third meal (Lunch).
(Chicken/Fish + Vegetables + Bean/Ice cream/other + Fruit) (Dish is fixed, only different flavour or cookway in everyday)
(Must queue up, no potong! BE A PELATIH YANG MEMATUHI PERATURAN DAN SOPAN!)

After dinner you can hv alot rest time until 2half. (For non-muslim)
(You can wash your dirty clothes or take shower or take nap or whatever what you do in this one and half hour.)
(Suggested wash your clothes, coz the weather is the hottest time in whole day, suitable for dry your clothes.)

2half must kumpul baik baik kat DM untuk Lapor. (Actually PT pagi hv lapor too.)

After lapor, Jurulatih will hv some activities to pelatih.
If unlucky, korang hendak tido semasa ceramah (Ceramah mmg bosan gilaaaa)
If lucky, jurulatih will gv you guys recess in dorm. (But only can stay in dorm area, no lepak at another places.)

4th meal (Tea time) in 4half.
(Same like 2nd meal. Kuih-muih.)

Then can take rest until 5half.
(Do pentadbiran sendiri.)

When 5half, hv to kumpul lapor again.
(Actually a day kena roll-call(means kumpul lapor) 4 kali.)

After kumpul, jurulatih will bagi korang riadah (free activity).
(Free activity - do anything what things you guys wanna do like Ping Pong, Badminton, Futsal, Sepak Takraw, Buluh Ayam, Jogging or lepak. Just up to you guys.)

Riadah only until 6half, coz is time for the 5th meal (Dinner).
(Same "package" with the lunch.)
(But if lunch is chicken dishes, then dinner will be is fish dishes.)

After dinner, yang Non-muslim will bck to dorm and doing pentadbiran sendiri lagi. HAHAHA
(I suggested you guys take shower in this time.)
(Remember it, you have 2hrs to take rest or do something you wanna do.)

The final roll-call in a day is on 8half/9/10half. (Time is depence on activity.)
(Tues, wed and thurs will hv Kelas Kerohanian, so 8half would kumpul edi.)
(Kelas Kerohanian start in 9 until 10half.)

After roll-call, teacher will allowed pelatih "shopping" kat Kiosk (Mini Market) in 15minutes.
(Kiosk only opened twice or thrice in one day.)
(The things you can buy in Kiosk - Mister Potato, CreamO, Chipsmore, Coklat Biskut, Bun(with flavour, chocolate/pandan/redbean etc.), pail, sabun(utk baju), hanger, Icecream, drink(Air bunga, 100plus, airkelapa, cincau, dutclady(coklat/fullcream/lowfat), toothbrush, pencil, sweets, etc.)

After shopping kiosk, teacher will halau you bck to dorm asap.
(Coz they don't allowed wira and w/wati bergaul.)

Switch off the light when 11.
(Before you sleep, remember tell your muslim friends wake you up on 6.)
(Then all the schedule repeat on nxt day.)



These are the schedule for weekday.
Schedule will different in Public holiday, weekend amd your mc day.
Actually the free day is nothing to do at all.
So you must be bored until jadi ikan masin. Hahahaha

Deeper explanation :
Everytimes lapor is pelatih all baris in dm.
Then follow the hukuman diberi oleh OC(ketua kompeni) by scream the step.
When all pelatih is ready and in situation 'senang diri', is time for CO(highest jawatan in pelatih).
After follow hukuman from CO, keep mouth shut and diri tegak in baris.
CO will lapor to jurulatih.
If pelatih play in baris when lapor... Tgklah, jurulatih akan siaplah korang.

Lapor 4 times is one day.
(6half/8half(depend on activities), 2half, 5half, 8half/9half.)

Possible hukuman in barisan
Baris² sedia/baris sedia, senang diri, rehat diri, kanan lurus, pandang depan, kiri/kanan/belakang pusing(when pusing ke belakang, must pusing in direction kanan.), dari kanan nombo, dari kiri/kanan/tengah cepat jalan, pusing ke kiri/kanan/belakang bertiga² ke k/k/b pusing, hentak kaki satu dua.
(Hw to work for these hukuman?  You will know it when you in PLKN.)

(For the reader are can't understand in Chinese - Sorry for broken language at above and only the schedule i wrote in Malay and English  )


其实真的不用怕些什么
在这里大家都会对你很好.
(前提你是个不计较 很随和的人的话)


来到这儿 就是度假
去度假 就是玩
说到玩 那当然要开心的玩


在这里你绝对可以遇到很多新事物
学到新知识
也能更加认识其他种族的习俗


还没去PLKN前 我绝对是个种族歧视的pokai
但在那里和不一样的人相处后(我那里的华人比较少数)
原来大家都可以成为我的好朋友


他们和我的好朋友一样
都对我很好 很疼我 和我玩得不顾形象 和我无所不谈 (即使语言不是很好)
分享秘密 一起吃饭 一起运动 这些他们都能和你一起进行
犹如你的好朋友


如果你不怕去说国语和英语
他们都会乐意听你烂烂的语言
只要你有说出具体的内容
他们都明白你要表达什么


在这里68天
我学了很多马来人的腔调
我懂了很多不同种族的习俗
我看见他们和我一样
是个最后会乐意和其它种族相处的人


就这样 我从那里回来后
就没了种族歧视这想法
反而开始去听他们的歌
不会故意去瞪或瞄他们
遇见很美的马来女生时
还会看多两眼哈哈哈哈


所以这儿真的让我改变了不少.


Felt glad im a ex plknians.
Feel glad if you become plknians after the days.





Tuesday, March 03, 2015

不允许挽留的友情

终于  时间真的TMD飞快
我从那里回来了.


只能说  好大的一个遗憾
为什么时间这次听见了我的话
让那些飞逝如水流
瞬间就把那些时光变成一幕又一幕的回忆.


"当初强迫我们互相认识 如今强迫我们分开"
"开始如便秘 结束如水滴"
"把我们从0的陌生人 变成100的好朋友 却又得分离"
听见好多好多深深的埋怨


无论是和你不同肤色 不同种族 不同语言 还是不同习俗的人
大家都说着一样的话
流着同样理由的泪水


从来不知道原来在这里可以找到比家人更深的友情
无论他们是马来人 印度人 华人 锡克人 还是混血儿
都成了这辈子只会出现一次的友情
而这份友情不是每个人都能有勇气去拥有


"快乐的时光总是很短暂"
看! 我都已经回来了
还能说漫长吗?


不能相信我竟然会爱上那里的生活
也在那里遇到一份不能带在身边的友情.